Where Are The Plans We Made For Two

Never a firm believer of fairy tales

...

Whom I gave my heart whole heartedly 

and irresistibly.

The hardest part was to retrieve it back slowly

and forcefully

 ...

p/s

If 'Happy Ever After' ever exist

I'd still be holding you like this

Half Way Ahead

So Physics and Maths are down! The more mathematical and scientific part of the exam is done and all that's left ahead are the writing papers. *big deep breaths* 

In some ways, I'm relief. Not that Economics and History are peanuts but they make much more sense to me than those boring and dull figures. 15 more days and I'll be done with A levels, officially. Previously, it was the last trial exam in college, then the last day of school and this one is the real deal. The last paper will mark the end of my 2 years A levels programme and I'll bid goodbye to college mates and all. *tears*

You know the good part of an examination period? You'll have plans laid ahead of you and an endless to-do list everyday to be done before the next paper. You're focused and occupied. But once exam's over, that hyperactive brain is gonna wander around and sink! Cause you're too free. And that's why I always keep an occupied routine. 

I have trips and vacation plans in mind. All that's lack is the right person to go with, or perhaps the person I want to go with? What about you?

p/s

Where are the times gone?

Dear June, How Do You Look Like?

So as the title suggests, it's been almost half of year 2012. June's coming up, it scares me to notice how time always gets ahead of me. I have no idea how, perhaps I'm one who's always stuck in the past, like how I never know how to fall out of love with you. 

Petty updates about my routine lately? Frequent night at the hostel at its quietest period where my housemates are all back home. Often had dinners at the new mall-Paradigm since it became the talk of the town. It's within walking distance from my hostel so you know how convenient it is for me to get my ass there. But honestly, people have been making a big HOO-HA about it, it's just a new mall in town, that simple and that's all.

I have approximately 2more weeks in my hostel, the irony is that I've began to miss the familiar stroll down the lobby, the footsteps to my friends unit 10 floors below and the couple of mamak places for dinners with few of the cutie pies. The mere conversation of deciding on what to eat for lunch/dinner everyday is just adorable at times. 

Night like this, I'll have my lullabies played aloud, lying on the couch like a pig sinking into my dreams, taking short naps after reading lengthy history papers. 

And as I close my eyelids, there'll be an explosion of silent scenes of us fighting, laughing, crying and talking in my head, every single time. I can't help it which explains my presence here at 4 in the morning-The wait for exhaustion to overtake you in my mind. 

And to all those burning the midnight oil for exams, 

good luck and may you all have an awesome June ahead!

'added a new track into my lullabies, check it out'

p/s

I'm sure you've been pretty good.

I know I've been a fool for a thousand times for saying this, 

But I still care.

I have no idea why you could mean so much to me! 

When We're Lost For Words

Jason Walker 'Cry'

Oh no, where did all the years go

And was it really worth all of this

Heartache that was handed to me

Holding on just don't make sense

But the hardest part of letting go

Is tryin' to find a way

To let you know

So we'll just cry, cry

On each other's shoulders

Cry until it's over

Can't it just be over

And we'll just cry, cry

Cry until it's all gone

Been holding on for too long

Time for us to move on

I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why

So let's just cry

I've been thinking 'bout my life and

How much time I've wasted

I'm ready to put it all behind

Let it all be yesterday

But the hardest part of letting go

Is tryin' to find a way

To let you know

Been holding on for too long

Time for us to move on

I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why

I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why

I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why

So let's just cry.

p/s

Teared so badly when I played the song you sent me

I understand every word your're trying to say

This is all I could say.

It Can't Be Over Like This

Shonda Rhimes

I frigging beg you to rewrite your story and replay this finale.

The rest of grey's fan and I will forgive you for your momentary mistake!

She's been such a wonderful character in your story

Don't just take her away in a brutal plane crash 

Cause this ending did no justice to Lexie and Mark

And all of us who've been with Grey's Anatomy for 8 years.

p/s

Don't take away this beautiful love story in my dreams

Cause it has already been taken away from this reality I'm living in.

That look when you're so tired but your mind is still not asleep

p/s

You're the only reason why I'm here in the middle of the night. 

That feeling when you're missing someone.

I miss you. 

That's Me Trying

It always start off with 'you' and 'me'. 

As time goes, there'll be 'us'. 

Then 'you' and 'me' gets lesser and lesser, 

forming more and more of 'us'. 

And when it ends, the reverse happens. 

It's the same cycle over and over again. 

...

Our intentions are always pure

We always want to do what's right

But we also have the drive to push boundaries

So we're in danger of taking things too far

So we do things when we should have left well enough alone

Because it's hard to let it alone.

It's really hard.
No matter how precise you define your boundaries,
there's always this grey area in between.






p/s
And I'll never never never ever
wanna lose this grey area of 
'us'

Can you ever let your guard down for once?